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2001 PCOS Journal
1/8/01
-
BF
had
his
appointment
with
the
urologist...
he
did
a
full
physical
examination
and
reviewed
the
results
of
his
first
semen
analysis
and
said
that
he
honestly
didn't
think
that
he
had
any
problems...
and
that
being
he
has
fathered
two
children
there
is
nothing
to
say
that
he
hasn't
always
been
this
way.
So
he
ordered
another
semen
analysis
to
be
done
to
compare
to
the
first
just
to
be
on
the
safe
side...
but
said
he
honestly
thought
that
he
would
have
no
problem
fathering
a
child...
it
would
just
be
a
matter
of
getting
someone
to
treat
me
and
get
me
regular...
he
said
its
hard
enough
to
get
someone
pregnant
12
times
a
year...
but
when
you
narrow
it
down
to
2
or
3
times
and
then
there
is
no
guarantee
that
she
is
even
ovulating
those
times,
it
makes
it
nearly
impossible.
BF
is
suppose
to
call
back
on
January
16th
to
get
the
results
from
the
2nd
semen
analysis
and
then
fax
the
results
to
Dr.
Butler
where
she
will
look
at
them
and
then
providing
that
they
are
the
same
or
better
than
the
first
time...
Then
they
will
talk
to
me
about
starting
me
on
medication
for
PCOS...
yeah
right...
I
am
sure
something
will
change
that
yet!!!! 1/16/01
-
BF
got
his
results
back
from
the
urologist
and
his
numbers
were
almost
double
from
the
first
time
around...
his
urologist
was
very
pleased
with
the
results
of
the
semen
test
and
said
again
that
he
didn't
see
any
problems
with
him
fathering
a
child...
that
the
problem
would
be
getting
a
doctor
to
treat
me.
He
faxed
the
results
down
to
Dr.
Butler
for
her
to
review. 1/17/01
-
Dr.
Butler
called
me
today
to
tell
me
that
she
reviewed
the
results
from
the
semen
analysis
that
the
urologist
did
and
even
though
they
were
better
than
the
first
time...
"They
aren't
perfect
like
they
need
to
be
in
an
infertility
case"
what
the
hell
does
that
mean???
She
said
that
even
though
she
felt
that
more
needs
to
be
done
with
BF
to
get
his
numbers
better,
that
the
urologist
seems
to
think
they
are
fine
and
that
I
need
to
be
the
main
focus.
I
said
well
yeah
I
tend
to
agree
with
him
on
that
one.
So
she
stated
that
she
could
continue
working
with
me
with
her
associate
Dr.
Kulbida
or
that
we
could
go
to
an
RE.
I
said
that
at
this
point
I
would
prefer
going
to
an
RE
and
she
agreed
with
me
that
I
need
someone
that
will
be
a
little
more
aggressive
and
maybe
I
will
have
a
chance.
1/19/01
-
I
emailed
Dr.
Horvath
one
of
the
two
RE's
in
my
area...
and
I
told
him
my
whole
story
from
start
to
finish
about
my
AF
or
should
I
say
the
lack
of...
to
the
treatments
I
have
had
with
Provera
and
Clomid
and
doing
the
donor
insemination.
He
responded
back
on
1/22/01
stating
that
I
need
to
make
an
appointment
with
him
and
he
will
review
things
with
me
and
see
what
my
options
will
be.
1/23/01
-
I
called
Dr.
Horvath's
office
to
make
an
appointment
but
its
not
that
easy...
they
take
down
your
name
and
address
and
then
they
send
you
an
information
packet
that
you
need
to
fill
out
and
send
back
to
them.
Once
they
get
it,
they
will
review
it
and
call
you
to
schedule
an
appointment.
I
do
already
not
like
that
part
of
it...
and
being
that
I
called
them
2
days
ago
I
should
have
gotten
the
packet
today
in
the
mail...but
I
haven't
yet.
This
is
just
soooo
frustrating. **
I
decided
for
grins
to
try
the
other
RE
in
the
Albany
area
to
see
if
I
could
get
an
appointment
with
him
any
sooner
than
April
26th.
I
was
informed
there
was
an
appointment
available
on
March
13th
so
I
decided
to
take
it!!
We'll
see
what
happens.... 3/13/01
-
I
had
my
appointment
with
Dr.
Henriques
today
at
9:45
a.m....
naturally
things
can't
be
easy
and
we
had
a
lovely
ice
storm
to
deal
with
driving
out
there.
We
got
there
and
had
to
wait
about
20
minutes
before
they
called
me
in...
Joel
and
I
went
in
and
talked
with
Gina,
who
is
the
registered
nurse
at
Dr.
Henriques
office.
We
talked
to
her
for
just
over
an
hour
about
my
medical
history
and
what
has
been
done
for
me...
then
I
had
to
leave
a
urine
sample
and
then
go
in
the
examination
room.
Dr.
Henriques
came
in
and
did
a
quick
exam
and
then
said
meet
him
back
in
his
office!
We
went
into
his
office
and
he
was
reading
my
chart...
he
told
Joel
that
he
wasn't
all
that
thrilled
with
his
semen
count...
but
he
didn't
say
he
was
doing
anything
about
it...
so
I
don't
know
if
its
going
to
be
a
problem
or
not!!
Then
he
informed
me
that
he
was
going
to
start
me
on
Provera
10
mg.
to
get
my
period
going
again
being
that
I
haven't
had
one
since
December
of
2000.
On
Cycle
Day
3
before
10
a.m.
I
have
to
go
to
the
LabCorp
and
have
the
following
blood
tests
done:
Cortisol
AM Dehydroepiandrosterone
Sulfate Estradiol FSH
and
LH Prolactin Rubella
Antibodies,
IgC Testosterone,
serum Progesterone Androstenedione Then
on
days
5
thru
9
I
will
be
taking
Serophene
-
50
mg
-
2
tablets.
Then
Cycle
Day
10,
I
have
the
following
blood
tests
done: FSH,
Serum Progesterone Then
on
day
12,
I
am
to
call
Gina.
3/17/01
-
I
was
scheduled
between
7
a.m.
to
8
a.m.
to
be
at
LabCorp
to
go
in
for
a
3
hour
glucose/insulin
response
test.
This
is
one
test
that
I
had
asked
my
previous
gyn
if
it
was
something
I
should
have
done
a
couple
of
years
ago,
when
they
had
a
2
hour
glucose/insulin
test
done
on
me
and
it
came
back
"borderline".
I
had
read
that
one
there
is
no
such
thing
as
being
a
"borderline
diabetic"
and
two
if
you
do
have
"borderline"
like
results
after
a
2
hour
test
that
you
should
have
a
3
hour
test
done
and
that
will
give
you
a
definite
answer
as
to
what
is
happening!
So
that
is
a
test
that
Dr.
Henriques
requested
be
done...
to
determine
if
I
am
"insulin
resistant"
and
can
be
put
on
Glucophage
or
not.
We
arrived
at
LabCorp
at
7:55
a.m.
They
didn't
call
me
in
right
away
so
finally
I
went
up
to
the
window
and
said
I
am
suppose
to
be
here
for
a
3
hour
insulin
test...
she
said
well
they
are
suppose
to
be
done
at
7
a.m.
you
are
late!
I
told
her
that
I
was
told
I
could
arrive
between
7
or
8
a.m.
but
no
later...
and
I
have
been
here...
so
she
told
me
to
go
in
and
leave
a
urine
sample...
then
I
had
to
go
and
have
blood
drawn....
then
I
was
given
the
"lovely"
orange
drink.
She
said
its
8:25
a.m.
now...
it
has
to
be
done
by
8:30
a.m....
oh
yuck!!
So
I
drank
that
and
gave
the
empty
bottle
back
to
them
and
had
to
go
in
for
blood
to
be
drawn
@
9,
9:30,
10:30
and
11:30
a.m.
The
first
hour
I
felt
like
I
was
going
to
throw
up...
I
just
felt
horrible...
the
second
hour
I
wasn't
all
that
bad...
semi
normal
(well
as
"normal"
as
I
can
be
I
guess)
and
then
right
after
she
took
the
blood
work
at
10:30...
I
went
back
out
in
the
waiting
room...
I
was
sitting
there
and
the
longer
I
sat
there
the
worse
I
was
feeling.
I
started
feeling
very
sick....
I
was
getting
light
headed,
dizzy,
nauseous,
cold
sweat
and
clammy...
I
didn't
think
I
was
going
to
make
it.
Finally
she
called
me
in
at
11:30
and
she
noticed
I
wasn't
doing
good
at
all,
and
when
she
went
to
take
the
blood
she
noticed
I
was
"clammy
feeling"
and
said
that
it
will
be
good
for
the
blood
test...
she
drew
the
last
vial
of
blood
and
told
me
to
immediately
go
and
get
something
to
eat
and
drink
to
bring
my
levels
back
to
normal.
So
now
we'll
see
what
the
results
say...
I
have
an
appointment
on
March
21st
for
a
pap...
hopefully
they
will
have
the
results
by
then
and
will
know
if
they
can
treat
me
with
the
Glucophage
or
not. I
also
took
my
first
Provera
pill
10
mg.
tonight...
I
held
off
on
starting
them
until
tonight
being
that
I
am
scheduled
for
a
"pap"
this
coming
Wednesday...
I
didn't
want
to
have
to
postpone
that
appointment
until
after
my
period
was
finished.
So
I
am
hoping
by
not
starting
the
pill
till
tonight
that
I
will
still
be
fine
for
my
appointment.
3/21/01
–
I
had
an
appointment
today
with
Gina
for
an
annual
pap.
I
was
in
and
out
in
a
couple
of
minutes.
I
asked
if
they
had
received
my
results
from
my
3
hour
glucose
test.
She
checked
and
it
said
that
it
was
still
pending…
so
I
have
to
sit
and
wait
to
see
if
I
will
be
put
on
Glucophage
or
not.
I
also
took
my
last
of
the
Provera
pill
10
mg.
tonight…
now
we’ll
see
when
AF
decides
to
make
a
visit.
3/27/01
–
AF
made
her
arrival
this
morning
when
I
got
up.
I
got
a
phone
call
from
Gina
on
March
26th
to
let
me
know
that
she
got
my
results
back
from
my
3
hour
insulin
test…
the
first
hour
my
insulin
level
was
243,
my
second
hour
it
was
182
and
all
she
told
me
about
my
third
hour
was
that
it
dropped
a
lot…
I
kinda
figured
that
from
my
reactions.
She
called
in
the
prescription
of
Glucophage
and
wants
me
to
start
out
only
taking
one
500
mg.
a
day
and
then
she
will
have
me
tested
again
in
a
couple
of
weeks
and
see
if
I
need
to
have
my
dosage
increased
or
not!!
She
told
me
that
she
didn’t
want
me
to
start
on
the
Glucophage
until
AF
arrived…
so
I
took
my
first
one
tonight
with
dinner.
So
far
it
seems
that
I
am
fortunate
enough
that
I
make
visits
of
the
“little
girl’s
room”
from
the
Glucophage!!
Oh
joy!!
3/29/01
–
Arrived
at
LabCorp
for
my
Cycle
Day
3
blood
tests
at
7
a.m.
this
morning…
of
which
consisted
of: Cortisol
AM Dehydroepiandrosterone
Sulfate
–
DHEAS
–
another
male
hormone
that
is
found
in
all
women.
It
is
secreted
by
the
adrenal
gland.
Women
with
PCOS
often
have
elevated
DHEAS
levels.
DHEAS
levels
that
appear
within
the
higher
limits
of
the
“normal”
range
are
common
among
PCOS
women.
Estradiol
–
Estrogen
is
the
female
hormone
that
is
secreted
mainly
by
the
ovaries
and
in
small
quantities
by
the
adrenal
glands.
The
most
active
estrogen
in
the
body
is
called
Estradiol.
A
sufficient
amount
of
estrogen
is
needed
to
work
with
progesterone
to
promote
menstruation.
Most
women
with
PCOS
are
surprised
to
find
that
their
estrogen
levels
falls
within
the
normal
range.
This
may
be
due
to
the
fact
that
the
high
levels
of
androgens
found
in
women
with
PCOS
can
sometimes
be
converted
to
estrogen. FSH
and
LH
–
Follicle
Stimulating
Hormone
and
Luteinizing
Hormone
–
FSH
and
LH
are
secreted
by
the
pituitary
gland
in
the
brain.
These
hormones
encourage
ovulation.
The
beginning
of
the
menstrual
cycle,
LH
and
FSH
levels
are
usually
about
equal.
Roughly
24
hours
before
ovulation
occurs,
the
amount
of
LH
increases
significantly.
This
surge
in
LH
is
what
causes
the
egg
to
be
released
from
the
ovary.
Once
the
egg
is
released
the
LH
level
goes
back
down
to
its
original
pre-surge
level.
Many
women
with
PCOS
already
have
an
elevated
LH
level,
so
the
amounts
are
not
equal
in
the
beginning.
Although
some
women
with
PCOS
still
have
LH
and
FSH
levels
that
appear
“normal
range”,
their
LH
level
is
often
2
or
3
times
or
more
than
that
of
the
FSH
level.
Prolactin
–
hormone
that
stimulates
and
sustains
milk
production
in
nursing
mothers.
Prolactin
levels
are
usually
normal
in
women
with
PCOS.
However,
some
women
have
a
slightly
elevated
level
of
prolactin,
or
hyperprolactinemia,
which
tells
the
body
to
produce
milk.
It
is
important
to
check
for
high
prolactin
levels
in
order
to
rule
out
other
problems,
such
as
a
pituitary
tumor,
that
might
be
causing
symptoms
similar
to
those
caused
by
PCOS.
Rubella
Antibodies,
IgC Testosterone,
serum
–
all
women
have
some
amount
of
the
male
hormone
testosterone
in
their
bodies.
Women
with
PCOS
often
have
an
increased
level
of
both
total
testosterone
and
free
testosterone.
Some
women
with
PCOS
have
total
testosterone
levels
that
are
still
within
the
“normal
range”,
although
often
on
the
high
end
of
“normal”.
However,
even
a
slight
increase
in
testosterone
can
suppress
normal
menstruation
and
ovulation
and
lead
to
other
PCOS
related
symptoms. Progesterone
–
is
produced
by
the
corpus
luteum
after
ovulation
occurs.
It
helps
to
prepare
the
uterine
lining
for
pregnancy.
Testing
levels
of
this
hormone
is
especially
important.
Sometimes
women
with
PCOS
can
show
signs
that
ovulation
is
occurring;
however,
when
the
progesterone
test
is
done,
it
shows
that
ovulation
did
not
occur.
If
this
happens,
your
body
is
producing
a
follicle
and
preparing
you
to
ovulate,
but
for
some
reason
the
egg
is
not
being
released
from
the
ovary.
In
addition,
low
progesterone
levels
may
tell
your
doctor
that
your
body
is
not
producing
enough
progesterone
on
its
own
to
sustain
a
pregnancy
even
if
the
egg
is
being
released.
All
this
info
can
help
adjust
any
fertility
medications
for
the
next
cycle
to
encourage
the
release
of
the
egg
and
help
sustain
a
pregnancy. Androstenedione
–
ANDRO
–
another
male
hormone
that
is
produced
by
the
ovaries
and
adrenal
glands.
It
is
more
potent
that
DHEAS,
but
significantly
less
potent
than
testosterone.
Sometimes
high
levels
can
affect
estrogen
and
testosterone
levels,
which
in
turn
can
contribute
to
PCOS-related
symptoms. They
informed
me
that
it
would
be
2
to
3
days
before
my
RE
will
get
the
results
from
the
blood
work
done
this
morning…
which
I
really
question
going
to
a
lab
that
doesn’t
do
the
labwork
there
and
has
to
send
it
all
out…
I
mean
what
if
the
results
don’t
get
back
in
time
and
I
miss
a
chance
of
getting
pregnant
cause
I
don’t
know
the
results
of
the
blood
tests.
I
want
to
talk
to
the
RE
about
this
situation
and
see
what
they
say!! 4/5/01
–
Arrived
at
LabCorp
7
a.m.
for
Day
10
blood
work
which
only
consisted
of
FSH
(Follicle
Stimulating
Hormone),
Serum
and
Progesterone.
I
finished
the
last
of
my
Serophene
(Clomid)
last
night…
for
the
most
part
I
wasn’t
all
that
bad
this
time
around
and
I
was
very
impressed!!
I
was
a
bit
more
emotionally
in
that
I
could
cry
at
the
drop
of
a
hat…
but
a
lot
of
personal
issues
were
going
on
at
the
same
time
including
my
father
being
in
the
hospital
and
all…
so
honestly
it
seems
to
have
gone
well!
I
am
suppose
to
call
my
RE
on
Day
12
of
my
cycle…
but
being
that
is
on
Saturday
and
they
won’t
be
open,
I
don’t
know
if
I
should
hold
off
until
Monday
to
call
or
just
try
calling
tomorrow…
worst
they
could
say
is
that
I
have
to
call
back
Monday
I
guess!!
4/6/01
–
I
called
my
RE
today
and
she
told
me
to
go
to
LabCorp
in
the
morning
and
have
my
insulin
level
tested
to
see
if
they
will
have
to
increase
the
dosage
of
Glucophage
that
I
am
currently
taking
or
not.
Thankfully
it
will
only
be
blood
work
and
not
the
three
hour
test.
4/17/01
–
Well
I
finally
got
a
phone
call
from
the
RE’s
office…
she
told
me
that
my
Day
3
FSH
level
was
5.2
and
that
my
Day
10
FSH
level
was
5.3
and
that
they
were
both
good.
Then
she
said
that
the
insulin
level
test
came
out
good…
but
that
she
is
going
to
increase
me
up
to
three
500
mg
a
day
of
Glucophage
and
then
wants
me
to
go
back
in
a
week
to
have
my
insulin
level
taken
again
and
see
how
I
am
doing
on
it!
She
made
an
appointment
with
me
to
come
in
on
April
27th
for
a
PEP
test
and
to
check
my
ovaries.
4/27/01
–
We
went
to
LabCorp
at
get
tested
yet
again
for
FBS
(Fasting
Blood
Sugar)
and
Insulin
to
see
how
I
am
reacting
to
3
pills
a
day
of
Glucophage.
From
there
we
went
to
the
RE’s
office.
Let
me
just
step
back
a
minute
and
update
you
on
what
else
has
happened
in
between
all
this
fun…
on
cd
18
&
19
my
fertility
monitor
said
that
I
was
at
“Peak”
so
we
did
BMS
and
kept
our
fingers
crossed
that
all
would
work!
The
following
2
weeks
after
I
had
every
symptom
of
pregnancy…
we
thought
for
sure
that
I
was
pregnant…
of
course
that
bubble
was
popped
pretty
quick.
Monday
I
had
one
spot
of
blood,
same
on
Tuesday,
Wednesday
I
had
a
little
more
but
all
three
days
it
only
happened
once
each
day
and
then
I
seemed
fine…
but
it
was
like
I
was
spotting.
Then
when
I
came
home
from
work
Thursday,
April
26th
AF
decided
to
make
her
presence
known!
Needless
to
say,
I
was
majorily
bummed
out…
I
even
had
been
taking
my
BBT’s
the
last
two
weeks
cause
I
thought
I
was
pregnant
and
watching
what
that
revealed…
I
went
between
98.4
to
98.8
every
day
of
those
two
weeks…
now
this
morning
I
was
back
to
97.9.
Anyhow
we
got
in
to
see
Gina
and
she
did
the
PEP
test…
which
basically
is
a
blood
test
checking
my
progesterone
level…
of
course
we
won’t
have
those
results
back
until
at
least
Wednesday…
so
I
don’t
know
how
that
turned
out!
Then
she
did
an
internal
and
checked
my
ovaries…
they
were
fine!
She
wrote
me
a
prescription
for
Serophene
to
take
from
days
3
–
7…
so
I
start
that
tomorrow…
oh
joy…
let
the
mood
swings
and
hot
flashes
begin…
ugh!!!
She
made
an
appointment
for
us
on
May
9th
to
come
in
for
a
post
coital
test…
even
though
it’s
a
painless,
quick
and
easy
test…
its
not
something
I
am
looking
forward
to…
it
will
be
embarrassing…
we
have
to
be
there
within
2
to
3
hours
of
BMS…
oh
joy!!
5/9/01 – We had our appointment this morning at the RE’s office for a Post Coital Test and an ultrasound. Today is day 14 of this cycle. The PCT wasn’t as bad as I was thinking it would be. When we first got there, both of us had to do a urine test… to test to make sure neither of us have any infections. Then I went into the room and it was basically like a pap… but she didn’t really take a swab that I thought it was like a long suction thingy that when she did it… it felt like a puff of air each time. It was quick and painless and if it helps with getting pregnant then it was worth every minute of it. Post
Coital
Test
is
a
test
of
receptiveness
of
the
cervical
mucus
to
sperm
and
sperm
motility,
both
of
which
are
needed
for
the
test
to
be
positive;
it
is
essential
that
the
test
be
done
to
coincide
with
ovulation,
tested
with
a
Urinary
LH
Kit
or
measurements
of
Serum
Estradiol
(high),
Serum
LH
(preferably
high),
and
Serum
Progesterone
(still
low),
because
the
job
description
of
the
cervical
mucus
at
other
times
is
to
be
impenetrable
to
sperm,
that
is,
the
PCT
will
be
negative
for
normal
reasons.
One
of
the
reasons
for
a
PCT
(Post
Coital
Test)
is
to
get
a
better
idea
of
sperm
function
by
looking
at
sperm
in
the
mucus
of
the
cervix
after
sexual
intercourse.
A
PCT
must
be
done
during
ovulation
because
you
will
get
a
negative
result
meaning
that
no
sperm
or
motile
sperm
are
present;
versus
a
positive
test
shows
more
than
five
normally
motile
sperm
per
microscopic
field
of
examination. After
that
was
finished
they
had
me
go
to
another
room
for
a
Transvaginal
Ultrasound
–
which
is
just
an
ultrasound
image
of
the
pelvic
organs
for
diagnosing
abnormalities
of
(particularly)
the
Uterus
and
the
Ovaries
and
for
monitoring
the
development
of
ovarian
follicles
with
ovulation
induction
and
assisted
conception
programs.
That
didn’t
give
me
the
best
results…
my
follicles
weren’t
really
all
that
big…
so
they
were
concerned
about
that…
that
biggest
was
only
17
mm
but
being
that
last
month
I
didn’t
ovulate
until
day
18
they
said
I
could
still
be
fine.
I
also
had
one
at
15
mm
and
a
couple
of
13mm’s.
They
scheduled
an
appointment
for
me
to
come
in
again
for
another
transvaginal
ultrasound
on
May
14th…
she
said
then
she
can
check
and
see
if
I
have
ovulated
or
not…
she
said
if
I
didn’t
by
that
date
then
I
won’t
be
ovulating
this
month.
So
hopefully
I
will…
keeping
my
fingers
crossed!!
This
month
feels
so
much
different
than
last
month
though…
so
that
is
making
me
nervous…
this
month
really
seems
to
be
dragging…
and
I
have
been
very
depressed
and
moody
this
last
week
or
so.
They
told
me
that
my
Progesterone
level
on
day
1
for
the
PEP
test
was
excellent…
and
my
endometrial
lining
was
9
mm
which
she
said
was
great
for
preparation
for
pregnancy.
So
now
we
sit
and
wait
to
see
if
I
ovulate
and
with
any
luck
get
pregnant
this
month.
5/14/01 – Today is CD 19… and I was spotting this morning and still am this afternoon. Well as I expected this was a waste of time today going for another transvaginal ultrasound… I had to wait forever to get in there which bothered me even more… when they finally called me in Crystal did my ultrasound today… who I wasn’t all that crazy about… but that is besides the point. She did the ultrasound and said my endometrial lining was 13mm which was good… then she went to check the follicles and there were NONE!!!! The ones that I had were now gone and I had nothing… so I won’t be ovulating this month… which I kinda am not surprised about cause I never seemed any different at all this month… but I was still very upset and disappointed. So after the ultrasound we went in to talk to Gina, who annoyed me today… but I think the mood that I am in most everyone is going to annoy me!! Gina informed me that they screwed up my urine test that I did before the post coital test and instead of testing me for T-mycoplasma…which is a sexually transmitted microorganism implicated in infertility and miscarriage.… but they tested me for a UTI (Urinary Tract Infection) and I have one to my surprise! So they gave me a prescription of Macrobid to take 1 tablet twice a day for seven days… I have to go and pick up tonight. Then I asked her if I had to come back in on day 1 of the next cycle for a PEP test and she said no. She increased my dosage of Serophene to 3 pills a day from days 3 to 7 for next month or for the next time I get my period if I get it on my own again this time around. She also informed me that my Rubella (German Measles virus) number is less than 5 meaning that I have a high chance of getting it if I came in contact with someone with the virus. She said my options would be to wait until AF arrived and get an immunity shot and then take a rest for 3 months before trying to get pregnant again… or… hold off and try and get pregnant and just don’t come in contact with any kids thru my pregnancy and get the shot after I had a baby… which I am going with that option… being that I am only trying this year and that’s it for getting pregnant… if it doesn’t happen this year, then I give up. I just don’t want to be older than 35 and having a baby… even though I would still want one… I will have to accept it and move on. 5/18/01
–
Okay
nothing
has
really
happened
other
than
me
being
super
depressed
and
very
negative
the
last
couple
of
days…
I
don’t
know
what
that
is
all
about…
normally
I
am
pretty
good
about
all
this…
but
lately
everything
is
annoying
or
bothering
me
more
than
it
should!
I
think
its
just
a
combination
of
things
that
have
been
going…
basically
now
I
am
just
sitting
here
waiting
for
AF
to
arrive…
which
if
it
were
to
make
an
appearance
it
should
be
Memorial
Day
Weekend…
if
it
doesn’t
come
by
June
7th…
I
have
to
call
Gina
and
tell
her
so
that
she
can
give
me
Provera
to
bring
it
on.
Then
I
guess
its
bothering
me
about
this
UTI…
I
mean
the
last
couple
of
days
I
have
been
having
a
discharge
like
a
yeast
infection…
but
that
is
all
that
is
happening…
which
I
told
her
that
I
get
that
like
a
week
up
to
two
weeks
before
I
get
my
period
almost
every
month…
I
don’t
know
what
that
is
about…
I
just
want
this
month
to
be
over
and
start
a
new
cycle
and
hope
for
better
results…
I
am
getting
way
too
frustrated
way
too
early
with
this
and
that’s
not
good.
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