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I
honestly
can't
even
tell
you
when
I
first
started
with
all
of
this....
now I
really
wish
I had
written
down
all
of
this
when
I
first
started
trying
to
get
pregnant
over
8
years
ago.
The
short
version
of it
all...
was
my
ex-husband
and I
were
married
in
1989
and
after
a
couple
of
years
we
decided
that
we
were
going
to
try
and
have
a
baby.
I had
been
put
on
birth
control
pills
back
in
1985....
I
didn't
even
get
my
period
until
the
summer
before
I was
to
turn
17
years
old.
Shortly
after
in
October
of
1984,
I got
my
first
job...
that
was
the
last
time
I got
my
period
by
myself....
I
ended
up
going
to
Planned
Parenthood
and
they
put
me on
birth
control
pills
to
regulate
my
periods
with
them...
which
of
course
that
worked
just
fine.
So...
by
the
end
of
1991,
I
went
off
the
birth
control
pills
and
were
started
trying
to
get
pregnant
to no
avail.
In
April
of
1992,
I had
my
appointment
with
my
GYN...
to
which
I had
told
her
that
I was
no
longer
taking
BC
and
that
we
were
attempting
to
get
pregnant.
Nothing
was
done
at
that
point
since
there
was
no
reason
to
believe
that
it
wouldn't
just
happen
naturally.
In
April
of
1993,
I
went
back
for
my
yearly
pap...
and
she
had
made
a
comment
about
how
she
had
thought
we
would
have
been
pregnant
by
now...
and
said
she
would
run
some
tests
and
make
sure
that
everything
was
fine...
which
of
course
it
was.
Then
she
said
before
we go
any
further
I
would
like
to
have
a
semen
analysis
done
on
your
husband...
of
which
he
agreed.
Red
flags
went
up
like
crazy...
major
problem...
your
husband
has
NO
sperm
count
at
all...
and
he
has
what
is
called
Kleinfelter's
Syndrome...
A
chromosomal
disorder
in
men,
characteristics
of
this
syndrome
include
total
azoospermia.
An
extra
X
chromosome
(XXY
instead
of XY)
causes
Kleinfelter's.
So
then
we
had a
decision
to
make...
were
we
going
to
just
give
up
and
not
have
children
or
continue
with
whatever
other
options
they
threw
at
us....
we
both
decided
that
we
wanted
to at
least
try.
So
naturally
they
felt
that
being
that
the
"problem"
was
my
husband...
that
all
that
they
had
to do
was
give
me
Provera
and
Clomid
and
Poof....
Yeah
Right!!!!
My
husband
I
talked
it
over
and
we
decided
we
were
going
to
give
it
one
shot...
we
really
didn't
have
all
that
much
money
to
invest
into
this
being
that
at
that
time
a lot
of it
wasn't
covered
under
health
insurances
yet....
so I
talked
it
over
with
my
parents
and
they
gave
us
enough
money
to be
able
to
purchase
the
semen
from
a
Sperm
Bank.
We
had
pages
and
pages
of
donors
to go
thru
to
try
and
narrow
it
down
to
whom
we
were
going
to
use...
we
finally
made
our
decision
and
we
were
ready
to
start
the
process.
So
they
started
me on
Provera...
and I
got
AF
with
no
problems
and I
started
the
Clomid...
I had
to
buy
an
ovulation
kit...
which
was
the
first
time
I had
ever
used
one...
well
I
never
really
saw
much
of a
change
in
color
like
you
are
suppose
to
with
it...
but
there
was
one
day
that
it
was a
tad
bit
darker
so I
thought
okay
maybe
this
is
it...
so I
called
the
specialist
that
I was
referred
to
and
they
had
me
come
right
the
next
morning
for
my
injection.
I
got
there
and
it
happened
to be
on a
Sunday
so
the
office
was
closed
so it
was
just
me
and
the
doctor
and
nurse....
my
husband
stayed
in
the
car...
which
at
the
time
I
didn't
think
about
it...
but
afterwards
I was
pretty
upset
that
he
didn't
come
in
with
me
for
moral
support.
I got
undressed
and
they
called
me
into
the
lab
and
showed
me
the
semen
under
the
microscope,
which
was
actually
pretty
interesting....,
then
I
went
back
into
the
room
and
they
came
in to
do
the
procedure.
All I
basically
can
remember
from
that
is
how
huge
that
needle
was...
and I
do
mean
HUGE!!!!!
One
of my
problems
was I
would
tighten
up my
muscles
when
they
would
try
and
enter
into
me.....
so
naturally
that
made
it a
challenge
to
inject
the
needle
into
my
vagina
when
I was
pushing
for
all I
was
worth
not
to
let
them
enter
inside
of
me.
Needless
to
say...
I
finally
relaxed
and
they
were
able
to
inject
the
semen
in...
it
was
very
strange
cause
I had
a
warm
sensation
come
thru
my
body
immediately
afterwards.
I had
to
lie
there
perfectly
still
for
15
minutes
and
then
I was
sent
home.
Nothing happened... I never got pregnant from the donor insemination... I was very very upset and disappointed. My husband ended up pulling further and further away from me... feeling like he was a failure and not a man being he couldn't give me the one thing I wanted in this world more than anything. Needless to say... one of the biggest reasons for our divorce ended up being from all the infertility and how much he ended up pulling away from me and the marriage.
